Sleep is evading me right now just after four am. I came home from David's nursing home last night determined to sort out some of the various strands, the heating, the money, the furniture......instead I sat down and slept, woken intermittently by well meaning people all trying to help!
One poor man almost got the rougher end of my tongue but the words froze on my lips as I realised he was still trying to get my beloved home!
I have tried all my usual ways of getting to sleep even starting "War and Peace" in the early hours!
I have prayed....for David and for me!
I have moved things around but made no sense at all of the jumble that reflects what's going on in my head.
The bottom line here is that we have reached the last stage.....and my conscious mind is waiting...with the subconscious mind floating off into the darkness unimpeded by any normal routines
We are in limbo....and the good gentle folk around us both are easing this last period heroically...
I am keeping the tears at bay....so far... Lord hear our prayer!