Monday, 3 February 2014

Not much sleep.

Sleep is evading me right now just after four am. I came home from David's nursing home last night determined to sort out some of the various strands, the heating, the money, the furniture......instead I sat down and slept, woken intermittently by well meaning people all trying to help!

One poor man almost got the rougher end of my tongue but the words froze on my lips as I realised he was still trying to get my beloved home!

I have tried all my usual ways of getting to sleep even starting "War and Peace" in the early hours!

I have prayed....for David and for me!

I have moved things around but made no sense at all of the jumble that reflects what's going on in my head.

The bottom line here is that we have reached the last stage.....and my conscious mind is waiting...with the subconscious mind floating off into the darkness unimpeded by any normal routines

We are in limbo....and the good gentle folk around us both are easing this last period heroically...

I am keeping the tears at bay....so far... Lord hear our prayer!

 

6 comments:

  1. Prayers for you both continue. Let the tears fall, Jean . . .

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  2. Dear Jean,there are many,many people thinking of you both.You will never be alone.Big hug x

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  3. Digitalnun is right Jean. Let the tears fall, trying to hold them back is painful and in the end can be damaging.
    I know I've said it before, but I'll repeat no-one expects you to be a hero all the time.
    If need be, go back to bed once you've done whatever must be done and rest in the day if you can't at night.
    Prayers and loveX

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  4. Only just read this but my prayers continue to be with you both

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