Sunday, 2 March 2014

Weathering the storm

Rain , wind, high tides....after a brief respite in the weather we are back to storm conditions here! Along with all the dire predictions there is also a long term forecast of a very hot summer...

It is a time of personal disaster for many people as they see their homes and gardens over whelmed by forces stronger than them....

"Your God reigns" are the words that stay with me right now but the spelling changes according to my mood....

My own disaster has left me beached in a place of grief but even as I type that I am aware of my good fortune compared to many people...

I have stopped being angry with God now....I am left with a feeling of helpless sorrow....but a determination to not be bowed down by it all.

This week I have to start to go out, to walk again even without my dog....walking a beach always feels quite wrong without a dog...but I am not going to get one....I will just get used to being a dog auntie...

My determination to get out and walk is however slightly dented by the wall of rain..presently falling outside...

It's one of those times when life and weather coincide...I am just trying not to become a shipwreck. The ancient wrecks visible at very low water remind me of the consequences of sinking without trace...

I will, with the help of God take a safe course through the storm. Where this journey will take me I don't know...but like every other low point of my life I know that whatever comes next will be treated as a new adventure....and let no one think that being old is an obstacle to this...it might just slow me down a little...but not for long. God willing.

2 comments:

  1. It must be frustrating to feel so confined by the weather, particularly as you feel drawn to be out there walking. But mercifully your wisdom has precluded that until it improves.

    We're thankful that we've been relatively unscathed by the weather, a couple of damaged fence panels, now replaced is all that we've suffered. But it's so sad to hear of people, who are still out of their homes and businesses and will be for weeks or months.

    I'm not one to blame God for the weather, but sometimes feel like asking him to leave it out for a bit :(

    Prayers and {{{Hugs}}} ongoing from a fairly breezy north Kent at the moment.

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  2. If you can get out and walk it will do you good. There is something about getting away from the 'contained' grief within your four walls which is healthy and spirit renewing.
    In the early days after John I found myself becoming more and more inward looking, and there was something about being outside in the fresh air even for a short time which allowed freedom from that constant living in my head.
    You are a much stronger person than I am Jean, but you have suffered a series of crushing blows in swift succession. This is far worse than I, or most people have to face in a lifetime.
    As well as praying for your health and that you will receive all the support you need, I will now pray for an end to this infernal rain.
    Love and blessings. X

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