My sleep patterns have reversed themselves in the last few weeks. From waking up in the early hours primed and ready to go I am now struggling to get my eyes open at eight o'clock!
I suppose I am going to bed very late again...a pattern evolved after I lost the first David ...
The stages of bereavement are familiar to me now and I am slowly working my through them yet again.
I barely ate in the weeks that David was in the nursing home...
This pattern continued for months....Last week in Madeira my appetite was still not back and if I ate in the restaurant I had trained them not to expect me to cope with the three courses on offer..I usually managed the starter followed by fruit.
Yesterday I was hungry.....the first time for a very long time....actually hungry!
I didn't really eat all that much but my sausages and bacon supper was huge compared to previous meals!
I now know I am on my way back...
My clothes hang loosely but I am far from skeletal.
I am still chatting to both David and my son as I walk around the house and garden....that stage may last years...I need to use my voice after all!
Tears still spring into my eyes as I thank both them and God for all the gifts I have all around me...But I am now ready...I start work again tomorrow...very very slowly...I have a busy diary once again and welcome the start of a new period of getting around the parishes....
I am taking the car out for a drive most mornings to make sure it will start when it's needed!
Thank you God and to all the people who have prayed for my recovery I thank you from the bottom of my heart....now, it's breakfast time!
3 comments:
Lovely to read this. Prayers will continue because you're still not fully healed if you ever are. But having a focus for your ministry in the next few weeks is very good.
And a restoration of appetite must be good to build you up a little, because not eating must be harmful.
Wot ee said Miss/
Blessings prayers and love continueX
May you be a blessing and in blessing be blessed X
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