tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-81378577161875675092024-02-06T23:55:16.454-08:00Tregear VeanRevjeanrolthttp://www.blogger.com/profile/12744131101249601856noreply@blogger.comBlogger4469125tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-8137857716187567509.post-88472009367747032132021-10-13T05:39:00.002-07:002021-10-13T05:39:32.195-07:00someone stole my Scotch yesterday and I want it back. I am not a child! I can have a small drink of an evening...it does me no harm...please return it! Revjeanrolthttp://www.blogger.com/profile/12744131101249601856noreply@blogger.com1tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-8137857716187567509.post-40150937565407934992021-10-13T05:02:00.005-07:002021-10-13T05:02:51.943-07:00Still here but not much better! ....a neighbour helps thank goodness Revjeanrolthttp://www.blogger.com/profile/12744131101249601856noreply@blogger.com1tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-8137857716187567509.post-45860609370001630662021-10-09T02:33:00.002-07:002021-10-09T02:33:29.114-07:00Feeling terrible and very weak...sorry! Revjeanrolthttp://www.blogger.com/profile/12744131101249601856noreply@blogger.com1tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-8137857716187567509.post-31086729954437920032021-10-08T05:06:00.001-07:002021-10-08T05:06:06.268-07:00Getting no betterGosh I am still bad . ...i have been unable to eat anything at all and am not drinking much either. A cup of warm milk and honey is the best I can manage right now and I am aFraid of losing that...like everything else over the last couple of days. I feel very weak. My gardener was here this morning and he kept a couple of visitors away...bless him. I am sleeping alright so thats something. And so far since starting writing Ive kept the milk down too. Its going on a bit though..Usually by this time Ive picked up a little. I dont often get so weak so fast so maybe my age is starting to kick in. I am old...well past my sell by date...so no arguments there..All I can do is just carry on ....I am so far keeping the milky drink down...Lets hope it stays down! Sorry...but this blog has always been an honest reflection of my state of mind...and this is it! oh hell! Revjeanrolthttp://www.blogger.com/profile/12744131101249601856noreply@blogger.com2tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-8137857716187567509.post-40394341631784302972021-10-07T01:40:00.000-07:002021-10-07T01:40:17.560-07:00Still sickYesterday helped. I phoned the doctor eventually but he never arrived. ....however a young lady did. And she was brilliant. She sorted out my pinging immediately...by climbing onto a chair and hitting it! So that helped! This morning I feel much in a daze...I have got out of bed and dressed but so far I have just tottered to the comfort of the sofa in my office! By my side is the receptable in case I am sick and that is possible! I know that I am not alone in this....and would welcome some words of wisdom because right now they are not coming from me. I have checked my fridge etc and I am not going to run out of anything just yet. .though the thought of eating makes me feel much worse.... so I have taken up my position on my sofa in the office and here I will stay! Just now the thought of food or even drink makes me groan...I am fine for the moment and the silence without the constant pinging is wonderful so many thanks to the young lady who made it possible. I am too old for all this...the sooner I go to meet my God the better...except I would rather look less like a vagabond if possible. OK....lets get on with it. Revjeanrolthttp://www.blogger.com/profile/12744131101249601856noreply@blogger.com3tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-8137857716187567509.post-61609364651262347562021-10-06T02:00:00.000-07:002021-10-06T02:00:22.593-07:00Sick! Oh dear....having been awake all night I have lost count now of how often I have been sick. ... a lot! Ive called the doctor who will ring me back. But I think I am not the only one with this problem. I am sitting on a couch with a bucket next to me ...just in case ...but as I am frightened to eat or drink anything there cant be anything left now. So I have joined the number of sick people here on the Roseland. I have no idea what comes next. At my age death is always a possibility. I feel very weak.....not like myself at all. I need to sleep now but every time I close my eyes I worry in case its the last time so I suppose that means that I am not yet ready to die! I feel cross that somehow I have managed to pick this thing up. I did my best not to! So all I can do now is wait...at my age no one is going to miss me if I die tomorrow...but I might not have that long! Its amazing that despite everything I still go on blogging....but it feels normal in a world where nothing else is. So if this blog stops dont think the worst has happened..give me a few days to recover! I am not yet ready to go! Revjeanrolthttp://www.blogger.com/profile/12744131101249601856noreply@blogger.com5tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-8137857716187567509.post-65156966314592205262021-10-05T01:23:00.001-07:002021-10-05T01:23:34.501-07:00Still bleeping! I believed I had sorted my bleeping problem yesterday...but I hadnt.... it has not kept me awake thankfully but this morning is loud and intrusive again! I clearly need help....but have no idea where to get it! I feel slightly sick and am not sure about drinking the coffee sitting by my side! Gosh I am fed up! When Ive written this I will go back and read everything I wrote yesterday because I did think I had sorted it out! That apart, all is more or less well. I dont see anyone else today or tomorrow so I just have to get on with it! I wish I could remember what I did yesterday to stop this noise but I cant! I have become very old ! I said that to the doctor when I spoke to him....I think he agreed! And I have...because the determined streak of independence is not giving up...though to be honest life in an old peoples home is starting to look better than it ever has! I think my jaundiced view of life in old age is being made much worse by this incessant bleeping...I have got to try to get rid of it....again. I managed once...surely I can do it again? Revjeanrolthttp://www.blogger.com/profile/12744131101249601856noreply@blogger.com2tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-8137857716187567509.post-5646413704453691932021-10-04T05:35:00.000-07:002021-10-04T05:35:51.286-07:00Late News! Sorry I am so late! My friend arrived early and I asked her to go shopping for me....which she did but it meant that I forgot about the bleep which actually stopped whilst she was here! I really have no idea whats going on with this because it has again stopped this afternoon! We shall see ..... Its raining a little and I havnt even tried to go out ...yet! Its time to think about the heating but somehow it feels that that will turn it off when so far it is actually working! shhhh... I am aware that Im probably not making sense to anyone especially myself but I am trying! Very I can hear you say!A announcement on the ipad tells me that the rain will stop in 15 hours! Wonderful! I really need to hear that! And the banging has indeed again stopped! Ok I have no real idea but it is getting fairly obvious that its something to do with the internet! Something Ive got on line at any rate.
All I have to do is find it! Ahem! Revjeanrolthttp://www.blogger.com/profile/12744131101249601856noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-8137857716187567509.post-80985163623078459852021-10-03T09:06:00.001-07:002021-10-03T09:28:28.149-07:00Bleeping again! After listening to the bleep yesterday and some of last night it has been quiet all day until two minutes ago! If its on a timer I dont remember what...or how... I thought it was sorted but clearly not. I am downstairs just now and it sounds very loud so I will go upstairs soon. I have no idea whats causing this...but its very annoying...and thats an understatement! Yesterday it went on until early this morning! Once it had stopped I thought I had cured it...but no here we are again. Yesterday nothing I thought of worked so I am trying to work out what it was for originally...Light? ....something I cant work out!
I have no idea what to do now...nothing worked yesterday!
Since writing that it has stopped again...I dont know how long for! I am upstairs in my ditting room...and so far so good. Fingers crossed time! Revjeanrolthttp://www.blogger.com/profile/12744131101249601856noreply@blogger.com1tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-8137857716187567509.post-64998278847950723972021-10-03T01:06:00.001-07:002021-10-03T06:18:55.988-07:00What next? I really have no idea what is going on with me. Last night I had a Tesco delivery...I now have enough food to feed several families! So why can I not eat! I havnt actually tried this morning...I just know that the thought of food makes me feel sick. I have had a shower and washed my hair and the bleeping has stopped. So all should feel well! Several friends have been in touch for which I am grateful. I just am not sure now what its best to do. I could try eating a little but I dont want to be sick! A nutricious drink might be the best bet!
I feel very silly now . I have worried old friends and left them wondering what to do with me . If I knew I would tell them...but the bottom line is that despite all the food sitting in my kitchen waiting to be put away I really am frightened of eating in case I then feel sick!
Stupid I know...Oh dear!
Later
Ok I still havnt eaten anything but I have drunk quite alot...and Im not feeling so low!
It wasnt alcohol either by the way! Its glorious again outside so I have walked the garden and will do it again this afternoon. I have no idea what is actually wrong with me but feel that its all my doing. I just dont want to eat. I made myself drink ..and I am feeling a bit better. Sorry if this is confusing...it is for me too. Revjeanrolthttp://www.blogger.com/profile/12744131101249601856noreply@blogger.com2tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-8137857716187567509.post-59229318310063288502021-10-02T08:03:00.004-07:002021-10-02T08:03:52.026-07:00Bleep! The bleeping stopped this morning but has started again now. I have no iea why. I can live with it...but I have no idea why its happening...its nothing to do with me! I havnt eaten anything yet...I really dont need food. But I am sure I have enough to drink so I havnt started yet...I dont want to actually get drunk. I have no idea what is causing this...I did sleep a bit last night. but I would like to think it would all be back to normal tonight. But the noise coming from the phone suggests other wise! I have no idea what this is all about...I just want it to stop. To go away like it did this morning... Fortunately I think I can sleep through it now!.... I hope! Revjeanrolthttp://www.blogger.com/profile/12744131101249601856noreply@blogger.com1tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-8137857716187567509.post-702296398987255292021-10-02T02:03:00.001-07:002021-10-02T02:03:46.331-07:00Second attempt! Somewhere I have already posted but it seems to have disappeared! I havnt not slept well because a noise is coming from my phone...I have tried to turn it off but it persists. It is a sharp little bleep! No idea what is causing it or how to stop it! I dare not eat because I already feel sick! The truly amazing thing is how many lovely messages i have had. I am very grateful to everyone ....it seems I am not alone! I would be very grateful if anyone knew how to turn the bleep off because Ive failed . Sorry to be such a misery but thats how I am feeling right now...and the constant bleep is making it worse. Anyone able to help would be very welcome! I hope this post doesnt join the last one! Revjeanrolthttp://www.blogger.com/profile/12744131101249601856noreply@blogger.com1tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-8137857716187567509.post-73002027220120835592021-10-01T03:23:00.003-07:002021-10-01T03:27:09.382-07:00Second post? I thought I had posted earlier but clearly I didnt. Or it just got lost somewhere...After throwing up yesterday I still have my coffee by my side feeling reluctant to go in the same direction. Right now I am not feeling at all hungry but I know I will have to eat at some stage! It is another beautiful day out there but the traffic on the road is lighter. I think...We may be approaching a quieter time which is usual in the Autumn. So far its still summer out there...no glorious colours are yet apparent! But its only a matter of time I suppose! Every day I decide to do some tidying up but it is fairly clear that I have yet to start! After writing that there have been alot of cars out there...and at some stage I will go out to see. This room really does need some work. Getting a load of paper into the bin seems like the first jobb.....until I get interested in what I am reading! Hopeless are my attempts at doing anything just now. So be I just have to try harder! Revjeanrolthttp://www.blogger.com/profile/12744131101249601856noreply@blogger.com1tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-8137857716187567509.post-14039410350929311282021-09-30T02:55:00.001-07:002021-09-30T02:55:45.951-07:00Plant a Tree! I dont think I have ever done this before....two blogs in a day but this ones warranted I think. I keep seeing injunctions to go out and plant a tree. Mmm I thought been there , done that so off I went to count! David and I bought a house with its own garden attached...a very big garden..It was essentially a field. I started during that very first year to put trees in it. I have never counted them before but this morning I did..... all sorts of trees, big ones, small ones, some bushes ... sixty two of them. ...all out there growing well. Sixty two! Its never occurred to me to count before but there they are...in clumps, in groups...not just standing in lines ...they provide shelter on hot days and look very strong, planted in what had been cow pasture. So please excuse me for not planting a tree. Been there, done that! Several times! Revjeanrolthttp://www.blogger.com/profile/12744131101249601856noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-8137857716187567509.post-80054651077088614902021-09-30T01:14:00.000-07:002021-09-30T01:14:04.725-07:00Damp Loo Roll! I am feeling very much better today...thank goodness! Yesterday I felt much better by mid day so I am fine most of the time! Listening to the radio first thing in the morning is probably not the best idea...Drinking coffee doesnt help either! So as yet nothing has passed my lips....and I am alright! So far! I will end up much thinner after all this so its not all bad news! I havnt walked the garden yet...I am building up to that slowly! Yesterday failing to find any spectacles when I needed them I sent for a new pair and this morning I have an email telling me they are on their way! So some things are working ...thanks to the internet...Yesterday I found my boiler room flooded and two loo rolls very wet indeed. Normally I would have thrown them out...but in these strange days it felt sensible to dry them out....you never know when you might need a loo roll! This morning they are not dry yet but they are getting there! In this strange time we are living through who could have guessed I would be so set on drying out a soaked loo roll? It was only soaked with rain water...nothing worse...but I admit I shall put it to one side for a while until it really is needed! Revjeanrolthttp://www.blogger.com/profile/12744131101249601856noreply@blogger.com2tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-8137857716187567509.post-70685544841396267032021-09-29T04:01:00.002-07:002021-09-29T04:01:46.166-07:00Unwell! I have been up for a while but I am feeling sick. I am trying not to actually be sick by keeping busy. So far its working. Anothe beautiful day means I should walk somewhere but just now staying close to a loo feels safer...I have eaten nothing nor drunk anything as yet...not wanting to tempt fate! Its very quiet again outside so I am now presuming we are out of the busy period! But the sun shines and its very pleasant out there! I am trying to think what I ate yesterday to account for this unpleasant feeling but nothing has seemed possible.....I have looked at several posts though and we are far from the end of term feeling as yet. All sorts of new things are being planned and some are already started. I will join in at some stage I am sure I just need to start feeling well again! A couple of hours later I am still not wanting to eat....but I will drink something....I think....Revjeanrolthttp://www.blogger.com/profile/12744131101249601856noreply@blogger.com1tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-8137857716187567509.post-48895685634730536972021-09-28T01:10:00.001-07:002021-09-28T03:13:08.849-07:00 Black Coffee? Oh dear! Thank goodness for the BBC which is giving the impression of normality at least. I feel sick after just one sip of the black coffee by my side. No milk! We used all we had yesterday! I find I can drink black coffee but not much before nausea hits me. It is very quiet out side but it is actually raining. This wont stop me from walking later..but I am now fed up! This morning theres no relief in the shape of my cleaner...its just me all day!
I am blowing my nose a lot just now...hoping that I am not starting a cold! My boiler room has flooded during the night . The water has got further in than usual. I will sweep some of it out later...but this is a problem I have had before. It usually clears up eventually...
I am very fed up this morning...and can find nothing good to make me feel any better. At least I dont need to go and queue for fuel. I am not going anywhere! Hearing what is going on up country is very depressing..I understand the need to get essential igredients in. But as I no longer have anyone relient on my efforts it really doesnt matter if there are things I havnt got! I dont actually want to drink black coffee much of the time..something sugery would suit me better! At that point I got up to turn the radio off and fell over...My balance seems to have gone. Oh dear!
Ok hours later I finally left the safety of the sofa and although I felt sick presumed I was safe because I had had no food. I was wrong. I still threw up! arghhhhh! Revjeanrolthttp://www.blogger.com/profile/12744131101249601856noreply@blogger.com2tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-8137857716187567509.post-89992137397749912772021-09-27T02:56:00.001-07:002021-09-27T02:56:50.638-07:00Complications! Since yesterday so much has either happened or is just about to happen that its hard to think! A good friend is in hospital, I am struggling to deal with events around and about me. Nothing seems to make sense just now but my cleaner is just getting on with the job whilst I try to keep us going with copious cups of tea! Life has become complicated again overnight! Nothing that I think might help does! The sun shines...its beautiful out there but I need to do some praying! I think! Concentrating might be the biggest problem!
The world I left quiet last night has turned into a place where nothing seems to belong! I am reluctant to assume anything yet....I dont know how we moved from everything fine to a place where nothing is normal! But we have! Praying for normality seems to be a regular event in my life! One day it might actually happen! Please! Revjeanrolthttp://www.blogger.com/profile/12744131101249601856noreply@blogger.com1tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-8137857716187567509.post-69735496562528275742021-09-26T02:18:00.000-07:002021-09-26T02:18:10.324-07:00Nothing to report! Its very quiet outside this morning...the odd car passes but as yet I have not seen anyone on foot. Inside I have work to do. Piles of paper need to be sorted out and this feels the time to do it. My cleaner arrives in the morning! I have walked the garden and all is well up there so really its a very dull day...nothing even vaguely exciting to report! A large very beautiful poster that I sent for last week has arrived and is now up on the wall. Its very bright! My only visitor yesterday was I think impressed but I am not sure she thought it was in the right place. In the hall its something you cant miss as you walk in...The coffee I started to drink half an hour ago has gone cold...so I need to warm it up! As you see nothing much is happening here...which is good. Some quiet time will be good. And I really do need to tidy up a bit...so OK...lets start! Revjeanrolthttp://www.blogger.com/profile/12744131101249601856noreply@blogger.com2tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-8137857716187567509.post-48174694937943898422021-09-25T01:35:00.000-07:002021-09-25T01:35:05.729-07:00Saturday morning! Up late again ....I am getting used to it! I made my first cup of coffee and only drank a mouthful before I felt sick. So here it sits by my side untouched since then. I really dont need to either feel sick or be sick so just now I am playing it safe! It is on my mind that I am being taken out for a meal tomorrow....and if I am feeling like this I wont want to go! Life has become burdensome suddenly...I am too old to learn new ways..but people are being very kind....including me in events they know I would have enjoyed before all this started! I have yet to convince them that coping on my own is not a problem! And I am coping ....mostly...feeling sick this morning is just a nuisance... The traffic on the road got much lighter yesterday and today is almost non exixtent! Of course its still early , theres plenty of time for it all to change...but so far it seems that a lot of people have gone home or are still in bed! I see looking around that I havnt done much tidying up of late...the house is a mess so before my cleaner arrives on Monday I need to have organised it a bit better! My coffe has now gone cold...I find myself reluctant to test whether I will feel sick if I drink it. So right now I can do without it! Since starting this paragraph traffic has started again but not much...so far....It doesnt feel like Saturday though the radio insists that it is...so I have switched it off now...I like the silence it goes well with my mood...plus I am reluctant to try another sip of coffee...I might not move fast enough next time! Revjeanrolthttp://www.blogger.com/profile/12744131101249601856noreply@blogger.com1tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-8137857716187567509.post-81210235083013101502021-09-24T01:09:00.000-07:002021-09-24T01:09:20.349-07:00The Gardener! Having woken very late I have now found several things needing my attention...not least the gardener out there. Spending far too much time wide awake during the night I finally fell asleep at a time when I should been up and moving ! The first thing to do after getting dressed was check if I had enough cash in the house to pay him. I had thank goodness! As yet there is no sound of machinery out there and I have no idea what he might be doing! Very soon I will invite him in to have a drink with me and all seems well despite my over sleeping! I had a visitor last night too. And its very good that people are taking the trouble to make sure I am still alive ! Hearing no sound outside I have no idea what he is doing ...but I am sure he will be doing something useful because he always does! Having heard the news on the radio I am now feeling very glad we have never had gas down here...When I first moved from Essex it was an irritation but now its a relief...I feel very sorry for those who are finding themselves struggling. The sun shines again..its quite warm and my first coffee has gone down quite well...Im not really all that awake at the moment but I am getting thete! Revjeanrolthttp://www.blogger.com/profile/12744131101249601856noreply@blogger.com1tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-8137857716187567509.post-68691079007923279522021-09-23T01:27:00.000-07:002021-09-23T01:27:39.169-07:00Solitary! I was awake alot during the night...thinking...The result of all that thought is that Ive cancelled a couple of events I was going to this morning. I really dont want to go! It was very kind of my old friends to include me but I think its time I started to be an old woman. I dont need to rush around joining in with various social events...I feel the time is coming when I just need to be quiet, on my own.... I am used to being on my own...its not the problem thst several people assume it to be. Here in my house and garden I have everything I need....my groceries come to me...there is no need to go out! I used to enjoy walking around the village chatting to people but now I am better alone...I have everything I need either here or coming.. I am aware that this plan has dangers but I really dont need a social life any more...I am happiest when no one is coming...It doesnt mean I have become old...I think the reverse of that is true...I just dont need or want people complicating my living arrangements and they do try! I still enjoy talking to people...this morning I chatted to a visitor next door for a while...but human contact can be achieved in different ways these days..not least on line....I am aware by the drop in temperature that Autumn has started so that winter cant be far away! So be it...I can still do this! Revjeanrolthttp://www.blogger.com/profile/12744131101249601856noreply@blogger.com4tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-8137857716187567509.post-53221931495767124522021-09-22T01:20:00.000-07:002021-09-22T01:20:59.185-07:00Warm clothes now! Its another beautiful day outside..but there is a chill in the air this morning! It will soon be time to get some warmer clothes out. Sorting out what to wear most days is easy...as no one sees what I am wearing its actually more important to stay comfortable than look good. And yet years of trying to look OK have left their mark. Plus I am going out at the weekend...with people I dont know very well. One person Ive known for many years has included me in his plans for an interesting couple of days next week. Meeting several people who are new to me has caused me to think about what I do wear day by day. Most days I tend to put on what I took off last night. This is very lazy but as on most days no one sees what I look like it doesnt matter....and yet somehow it does...I need to be tidy and if possible smart!
But being warm seems most important just now...having been outside briefly I am aware that I need a warm jacket on or I will get cold! Its much too soon to get the central heating on and yet....I admit I am tempted...if only to be sure its still working! The transition from summer to winter is always fraught..but it needs to be started soon judging by the chill outside this morning! I must get a warm jumper on....if I can find one! Revjeanrolthttp://www.blogger.com/profile/12744131101249601856noreply@blogger.com1tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-8137857716187567509.post-55872258510900825952021-09-21T03:18:00.001-07:002021-09-21T03:18:37.511-07:00Going out! I am very late posting this morning because I have been out. I decided early that a trip to the village was needed...and I am still amazed by how many people were about! Gosh we are busy! I went for a coffee and sat outside in bright sunshine to drink it and the number of people going past was astonishing! I talked to several people and they told me how lucky I am to live here and I know that to be true but the sheer number of visitors was incredible! It is now Autumn ....time for going home mostly but the golden oldies are here in great numbers this week...and I suppose this morning I was one of them. It felt very good to get home though. Its quiet here compared to the village. I am glad the shops and restaurants are so busy...they need it to get them through the winter...But I admit I found it daunting at times...I had forgotten just how busy it can get! Staying close to home feels right now... so I will resist all temptation to go down there again until its much quieter...I know that if I want to buy something from the well stocked shops someone will bring it up for me....but this morning has cured me of being adventurous! Revjeanrolthttp://www.blogger.com/profile/12744131101249601856noreply@blogger.com1tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-8137857716187567509.post-31653295487494885722021-09-20T02:39:00.000-07:002021-09-20T02:39:45.768-07:00Dustbins! I am fairly sure Ive blogged on this subject before....so sorry ..but really some weeks I need to let off steam! Monday morning is when our dustbins are emptied. The wagon arrives around nine and then We can get the empty ones in. My prooblem is that I am one dustbin missing. I have talked to the people in charge and they sent me a new one. That has also been taken. Altogether over the years I have lost a fair number of bins.... my problem is that I dont take anyone elses bin. I just buy new one or arrange for another one to be delivered. They go too. I have tried putting my name on them ....that doesnt stop the problem....its easy to just wipe it off. This morning I have had a conversation with someone removing his dustbin. He has painted his name on it. So I should just do the same obviously but somehow this never works for me. Over the years I have lost about ten dustbins never to be seen again! It is simply a fact of life living out in the sticks that people take dustbins...I really dont know why...I suppose they dont think anyone actually owns their bin..so its not really stealing. But thats not how it feels when a brand new bin disappears over night. Arghhhh! Revjeanrolthttp://www.blogger.com/profile/12744131101249601856noreply@blogger.com2