I am a pretty even tempered person mostly....but I haven't always been like this.....In my younger days, tearing around from pillar to the next pillar before getting to the post I did have a bit of a cross streak...There I admit it...there have been times when my fuse has been very short indeed....it was wise to put on a tin hat when coming into a room where I was stressing out.
Now for the most part all is well, I am only over burdened with work occasionally and I get on with most people....computers are the exception here obviously . They make me cross without even trying!
My daily set backs consist of small things like the dog barking just as I'm getting the ideas in line for a sermon!.
So why am I so nadgered this morning? My computer is working just fine.....shhhh
Its grey outside and damp but in here its warm and cosy.
All is well with my world apart from one E mail which has made me cross. I've wasted far too much time already trying to write a conciliatory, soothing reply but I've failed because every time I sit down to write, anger, and irritation flood my brain and the really annoying thing is that its not anything important at all....easily solved with good will on all sides.
All the techniques I learned in my youth are now in review.
Shall I meditate using a candle flame or a flower to focus on?
Or....sweet music doth soothe the savage brow.... etc.
There's any number of calming influences around me...so what will I do?
First I'll talk to the dear lady whose husband died recently.
Then I'll walk the dog around the field in the rain.
Then I'll plan a nice comforting beef casserole for lunch...with dumplings..
I am already doing the most important thing though. I'm blogging.....and that's the whole point of the exercise for me.
Instead of harbouring deep dark thoughts and forming all sorts of sentences in my brain to repel boarders....I am writing it out. a technique used by me for far too many years but it works. I no longer want to scream , or send rude emails.
Its done....there, I'm smiling again. Honestly I am. :-)))