Planning now!

I am not publishing my latest poems but they are written. Small cries of grief to go with all the rest. It's what I do in times of heart ache .
I woke up to sunshine and people already out walking the cliff path I see from my bed!
I am looking back but also forward....
This week I will take the friends who have driven me everywhere during the days of pain, out for a meal in the restaurant looking out to sea , much loved by me and Michael...
It will be very sad....but it will honour his memory....
They met him, liked him and are helping me mourn him...
I will then start planning for our next cruise. We had separate cabins but next to each other...Michaels son cancelled his fathers cruise before he died.
The travel agents rang me up to tell me...but I have made my decision. I go on alone...
I will do all the things we had planned together now. I hear his lovely voice telling me how much I would enjoy the sights and sounds of Norway!
It will be bitter sweet I know...but there should be time for tears of regret
Too many tears over the years...but also the joy is still there with them.
And I have started to talk to him as I go on without him.
We were lucky Michael to have found each other and loved each other. And now I go on alone but carry you with me to the fulfilment of our plans...
This trip will not be all sadness...it will be what you planned. A sentimental journey of love .


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