I have had too many people here lately. But this is not a good excuse for my failure yesterday to keep several appointments. I spoke to everyone involved as I realised that I wasn’t going anywhere...but today I feel bad for letting at least one person down.
I can’t blame my age for this reluctance to see people. I just have had too many things happening in my life for comfort lately.
I have begun to think about the next cruise though....people here are astonished when I tell them there is nothing booked at all.
I have become a creature of habit clearly. And it’s this that I’m resisting...I am perfectly happy at home. I live in a beautiful place which is just now preparing for the annual invasion. There are plenty of old friends arriving during this summer so I’m only looking at cruises later in the year. Habit has grown that now in my retirement I go off to beautiful places and meet new people regularly. I am able to see things that I’ve always wanted to see...there are not many parts of the world that I have yet to visit. But right now I am aware that it’s not Geography that gets me moving....it’s people. I love the meeting of all sorts of people I wouldn’t meet any other way...I am still in touch with lots of them and some read this blog every day I’m told .
But still I hesitate....I am enjoying this glorious summer even though going out to sit in the sun for hours is no longer possible. My small touch of skin cancer means that I have to put cream on before sallying forth....and I can no longer sit for hours getting brown as I always used to do...my tan now comes out of a bottle!
I suppose I shouldn’t be surprised that my life is changing as I get older... ..... being retired doesn’t actually help. There are no good reasons why I can’t just set off and go...
No doubt in due course some decisions will be taken...eventually....But not yet...ahem!
1 comment:
Perhaps you need a visitor filter. Work out how many you can safely manage, on a priority list and than be selective who you can see, meet or visit. A time limit would be helpful. No more than 2 hours for each one, not more than two a day.
I don't agree that you are getting old, just a little more mature. You pointed out that you still have natural coloured hair and a little grey around the edges, surely that demonstrates that there is still vigorous life in you yet.
I am not yet 70, but I am completely grey. My spouse says it suits me, something about looking distinguished. But I have a crew cut to keep the grey at bay. It's too late to use Grecian 2000 (you many remember the adverts for it prominent on TV and in the Papers a few years ago), so I will have to live with what God has left me with. However, I can say that I still have all of my hair, while my 42 years old son has very little.
Perhaps your friends could reassure you that your plans to cruise should be put on hold for now, while the weather is glorious, and plan for the Autumn instead. Travelling alone must be strange for you after being on so many trips with David. I hope that your company you meet is not to demanding.
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