Another drab day.

Yesterday was quite simply frustrating in all sorts of ways. Once I had taken delivery of the grocery I had ordered I then settled down to try to make sure that the next one was coming next week. I have learned to do everything early but it was a mistake yesterday. I don’t think I actually messed up my laptop but for the best part of the morning I thought I had. Slight panic set in...and I opened up my husbands computer to rescue mine...oh dear! At one stage I had both of them screaming at me...metaphorically speaking. I couldn’t just leave them but it took up the best part of the day to sort out. This was the first thing on my mind when I woke up this morning. So far I’m only using my iPad. The laptops are downstairs and I’m not yet brave enough to face them. I do have the phone number for a chap who can help but my stubborn streak is shaking its head at the thought. So....at least I now have a full fridge again and this knowledge makes me much too happy...I am turning into a different person through all this....The sun is absent this morning and sitting up in bed I feel chilly...and I’ve turned the heating off. I am turning into a worrier clearly which is something I’ve never been...When I get some clothes on I have to start both my laptop and my husbands laptop to make sure I didn’t do anything serious to them yesterday. I don’t want to get help from the computer chap unless I really need it. ...but that feels like failure...oh dear! In the continued absence of my cleaner I also have to get around the house shifting the dust from one place to another....and that’s the whole problem in a nut shell. There is nothing really useful that I can do...so chatting to the odd friend, trying to rescue anything thst needs it after my mess yesterday takes first place in the agenda. In the middle of yesterday’s chaos I failed to eat properly and I am conscious that before anything else I must eat something this morning. Losing weight is not part of my plan. That sounds as if I have one...a plan I mean but really I’m just ambling along...fixing things as I come across them but with no actual thought of anything beyond surviving the day. If I could also do something useful or enjoyable that would be good too but I’m not holding my breath....