Another Last Gasp!

Another 'Oh Dear' coming. I have not slept well. Too many thoughts chase around my head...mostly to do with my going to a hotel for Christmas. All sorts of horror stories have played themselves out in my head...so many what ifs....too many warnings of possible impending doom. Being a single woman staying on her own might lead to some difficult situtations. And if they do I tell myself sternly I will sort them out! Of course I will! But my imagination is running overtime on this subject...there are too many " What ifs" So this morning I will drive along the sea front to see the hotel which looks perfectly fine...and I will try to get my over active imagination under control! My bag is packed but so far I am thinking of taking everything out and starting again...because that way I am sure of what I have packed! Oh dear...it would just have been easlier to stay quietly at home on my own. And that could still happen. But first I must get my suitcase closed and bring it downstairs...which will mean my checking its contents thoroughly first. I am getting too old for Christmas away from home on my own. But the solution for that is a bit final. I regret not holding our usual Christmas services in church.....they were always a wonderful start to the holiday but nothing is normal this year...especially not me. Oh dear!