On my own!

Gosh theres alot going on around here! A quick look at the local adverts shows all sorts of events either being planned or underway now! Whilst this impresses me it does not move me to join in. I have become resistant to anything which includes crowds. I really dont want to visit the Falmouth events even though they are just across the water. Come to that I dont want to join in any events at all containing a lot of people. My need to stay quietly at home is asserting itself every time I see an advert for something exciting! I am not encouraging friends to visit either. And this is not a thought out notion...I just feel safer here on my own at home. So here is where I am staying for the moment. My views are wonderful..I look out at Falmouth from the front windows and the sea beyond Portscatho from the back. Some mornings like today it all looks grey and dull. But even on a bright sunny day I am not tempted! East, West...homes best! I have no idea where that comes from but its how I feel just now. I am not bored..theres plenty to do...and books by the hundred weight! Trying to put people off visiting me is proving quite hard. There are some people who may never try to help me again! I just dont need to join in ! I am fine on my own..I am used to it after all! My memories of going off to stay in a hotel last year are not good even though everyone meant well. There is enough food and drink here for the moment so I have settled down...solitary life seems to suit me!