Continuing !

Oh dear....that is all I can think of right now. Oh dear. These lockdown Sundays are so far from any normal Sunday that I admit to feeling sad. This doesn’t happen very often but that’s the over riding emotion this morning. Singing hymns, praising the Lord, hugging anyone I bump into...These are all part of a normal Sunday....gone now..I will join in the electronic service produced by the friend in the next village. But right now pulling the duvet over my head and retreating under it seems a better solution. I’m not often depressed...it is not a natural state for me but depressed is the best way to describe how I’ve woken up. It won’t last long ....once I start moving, all sorts of problems will pop into my head. But just now I really am fed up! Yesterday there was a lot of traffic on the road outside...I think people have arrived to celebrate the long weekend. But just now it’s quiet...nothing is moving and I’m not so much depressed as dull. So I’ve worked out a sort of strategy...all involving the phone. I’ll talk to my friend in the next village who lost her husband last year....I’ll ring the man I go out with occasionally who can’t get down here as planned. I’ll also return a few calls that I failed to respond to earlier in the week. Oh dear....it has started to get me miserable. This I can and will fight. There’s plenty of food in the fridge and an embarrassing number of bottles decorate one of my bookcases... so despite the fact that I haven’t seen another human being in the flesh for weeks I will continue. Please don’t worry about me....I fully intend to bounce back....I just need a little human chat to respond to. And I do intend to continue. Being alone is better than being with someone who drives you demented! And I’m not thst....yet!