Not Cruising!

Another dark and gloomy day outside perfectly matches my mood. I dont often get miserable but just now it seems reasonable given everything happening or not happening out there. Soon I have a stay in a hotel to look forward to. This was my response to not going off on a cruise this year. So I booked myself a few days away from home in a couple of weeks. But what looked a good idea a couple of months ago now feels like the wrong thing. It feels very self indulgent I am afraid. And when I booked it I had presumed that by this time much of the mess would have been sorted out. I was wrong clearly....this state of affairs will not end soon . One of my friends states frequently that it will last for months, until next summer probably... So OK...no cruise, so why am I looking for a treat when everyone is suffering not just me. And in fact no suffering is involved in my present isolation. I am fine! Enough to eat, too much to drink...friends to talk to on the phone. So I am instructing myself to stop moping around. As the hotel is booked I will probably go complete with my mask! But I dont have to like it! Arghhhh!