Getting on with it!

Nothing now seems normal! Perhaps thats because nothing is actually normal! its all weird. living alone means that there is no one to consult on what is happening or isnt happening. It just feels abnormal most of the time. I think I have got most of my cards in the post. I think I have remembered everybody but I cant be sure. And actually thats the real problem. Nothing is sure anymore. Today I will get my suitcase out, and try to find some enthusiasm for my stay in the hotel. But in my head there is a big yawn. Do I really need to get out my party clothes at this stage when all the world seems enveloped in disaster of some kind? I listen to the news and want to put my head under the duvet! This is mot me I tell myself sternly...but right now it is. None of my friends who live up country are able to get down here this year...The road outside is very very quiet! This is just very strange...so I am trying to find the good things....I have a warm house, the radiators are hot to the touch..I do have some festive food and drink to enjoy either alone or with any friend who turns up! Its really not too bad...and I suppose I am actually much better off than many so I tell myself frequently that all is well really and to just get on with it...So far I havnt got any posh frocks or festive wear out of the wardrobe..I am not yet ready to pack for a stay in a hotel...it seems just too far from reality...But time is passing and I had better get on with it..so I suppose that leaving my warm duvet behind is now imminent! Oh dear!