Thursday, 4 February 2021
Oh dear again!
Oh dear...... yesterday was simply dreadful. I had someone trying to take over the house and garden...which I resisted...and I think succeeded. Today I am being taken for my vaccination....I think. I have reached the conclusion that I am simply too old for all this. Being shouted at yesterday by someone I like was frightening. I trembled for an hour at least afterwards...Life for us all has become a struggle for survival...and the point I try to make when I can is that for me its not a choice. For my age I am still a fit old woman. My brain still works...most of the time! But I am questioning myself now. What am I doing? I cant kill myself on purpose...So on I go. But my survival seems to have irritated some people. I am still fairly strong and I dont think there is much wrong with my brain...but here I am ...alone most of the time and taking up space. This misery is most unlike me and I must snap out of it before I get picked up to go into Truro for the jab. Usually going into the city is a pleasure...but not today. Nothing feels right any more and I am clearly annoying some people. So I tell myself to snap out of it...get moving and stop feeling sorry for myself.....I can do this.....I think. But I am questioning why at my age I need to go for a vaccination to keep me alive when by the law of averages I should already have died. But this really isnt me. I drink my coffee , and brush my hair. A quick look outside reveals the appalling state of my wall...but no one has turned up to work on it. Oh dear really doesnt cover this! But I cant use the swear words that do!
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Oh Jean. I hope today has been a better day and that perhaps you have had your vaccination.
I also hope that the house repairs are underway and you have also had the opportunity to have a conversation or two with a friend or two.
Do take care xx
I am late again to this particular party. I wonder why someone thought that they could take over your home? It sounds quite like bullying and elderly lady, but fortunately, your resisted their demands, whatever they were.
I can't imagine what they thought they could achieve? But I hope that they won't be back to cause you more problems.
I hope you were able to get your vaccination, and I don't think you are in danger of losing your marbles, yes, sometimes forgetful, but this post shows me that you are just a robust as you want to be.
Prayers that you have a less troublesome time in the next few days, that your wall (and roof if needed) is quickly repaired and your peace is restored.
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