Tulips!

Well I am up, dressed and showered....but thats as far as normal goes this morning! Nothing feels normal. I have been out briefly and its not normal out there either! But one good thing has happened! A beautiful bunch of tulips arrived yesterday. They are from my stepson Rob. To say I am touched is an understatement. Rob lives a very long way away...up in the north high on the moors. The flowers are for Mothers Day! I had forgotten about Mothers Day too! Since losing both of my actual children I have given up expecting anything to happen that expresses my role as a mother. I am a mother whose children have died before me. This still hurts so I am delighted by gestures like this. This year I will not be taking any services dealing with motherhood...these have always been painful so this year it will just be me and my tulips from up north! Thank you God and Rob.