Boring!

I am awake rather late because for the last hour or so I have closed my eyes and refused to join in..... its all horrid....and I would much rather be asleep. However I am not. And it is still rather awfull wherever you look. Here in Cornwall we feel cut off from the worst of it...well I do mostly. But its still impossble to feel any sort of joy in life with any degree of security. .... who knows what lies ahead? My life is easy compared to many. I have enough to eat and I am definately drinking more than usual...Last night I had a long conversation on the phone with my daughter in law which cheered me . She works in a nearbye town and keeps me up to date with the way of life away from rural Cornwall. Here in my small corner there are only four houses and one of them is unoccupied. The children next door go to school every day...everything appears normal.....and this cheers me. I have no idea why.....except that normal is good. I am indulging in all sorts of ways...drinking too much, eating enough, walking several times a day and watching stuff on the TV I would never have bothered with in the past. Life is boring...but safe. So be it!