Dark morning!

Its dark and gloomy outside this morning...so as its Saturday I may as well stay in bed. Its remarkable how much guilt that sentence produces. Its not easy these days to pretend that everything is normal when its clearly not. I got a phone call from my doctor yesterday and it was a chatty pleasant few moments until he told me that the tests from my visit the week before were all normal. I had forgotten all about the tests...but realised belatedy that this was actually good news. When my husband was in his last month this doctor was the one I saw most often . He visited David almost every day , far more often than I expected and was always pleasantly chatty. Its very reassuring now that he took the trouble to phone me and I suppose this will be true for everyone else too. If a visit to the doctor can be conducted by phone now and in the future then this is a way of us not breathing on each other clearly. I have no plans to go out today. I am not expecting anyone here and that is fine. I will use the phone I suppose...but being alone has now become normal for me. Its fine...I can do this especially as the gloom outside pervades. The radio is company enough for now. And I am watching more television than ever before... So be it. Its not all rubbish...the daily news from Boris is now required viewing...the scary numbers on the screen show me why we are all living strange lives. How long this can go on I dont know but I suspect we are all in this for months yet. OK...we can all do this. Hopefully!