Aging

OK ... this is my final admission that I have become too old. I woke up fully intending to go to church in the next village. I wanted to go but then I started to think. What if I needed to put some fuel in my tank! I know its already low but if I drove to the next village would that leave me enough to get to to the garage that sells diesel? This has echoed round my head for an hour so the bottom line is that I am not going to church. I can do my own thing at home. Since I havnt left home for a couple of weeks now I realise that I am in danger of becoming far too cut off from people. I wanted to get to the little chapel.... but I am afraid of not getting back. I know that someone would come and pick me up if I asked them to. But thats not an option I want to chose right now. I am reluctant to admit that I need help I presume. Old habits die hard! So here I stay. Another beautiful day is tempting me around my garden and I could sing a hymn or two along the way. I have old friends here at present...people I have known for forty years...but I am reluctant to admit any of this though they might well guess it I suppose. OK I have become an old woman...Its not something I can hide nor do I want to. My friends know anyway! We are all of age. But some of us are better than others and thats not me any more! So be it Lord!