Christmas booking?

Once again I have been trying to work out what to do for the best in these strange times. As we are now in September my mind is thinking about Christmas! ....only briefly as yet but it is something that needs thought! I used to cruise at Christmas. When your husband and your children have died before you it is a painful time of remembrance as well as trying to make practical provisions. Last year I booked into one of our splendid hotels...that would have been great...except I didnt go. I had paid for it up front but as the time approached I found myself strangly reluctant to go away. So I didnt! This will no doubt be a surprise for some people but I just did not want to be with a happy group of people on my own so on the day I was booked in I rang them up and cancelled. I was briskly informed that I would not get my money back. As I hadnt expected to that was fine. So making sure that I would have enough to eat and drink I stayed at home on my own. It was fine...better than being with people I didnt know trying to have a jolly time. Here at home on my own I watched TV, ate and drank rather alot and laughed and cried when the mood took me. I may do the same again this year....but I dont know! Being flexible and doing what suits me at the time is fine... I may do the same thing again but theres plenty of time to think about it...